It's not quite what it seems

I hate times like this
As I sit at a pretty decoration of writing table
Staying in a very quiet, cosy and comfortable room
I feel empty and sad since I woke up this morning
And I do not know why...

Maybe because it is not my messy room
But I would prefer my messy room now
The sound of birds chirping in the morning, loud TV,
The sound of my mom makes her cup of morning drinks
Juices, herbs, coffee and such
Snuggling in the mess deco bed of mine

Or maybe because this is not what I want in life
What do I want in life?
I thought this is what I have been dreaming to be
But it's not quite what it seems...

Patience... Have faith...

Kisah Nabi Muhammad S.A.W dengan Pengemis Yahudi.

I am posting this kisah again cos I accidentally deleted it the other day.  Sometimes I will revisit the selected blogs I have posted here especially those which could be a reminder to myself, that could teach me to be a better person each day... Sorry Comel, terdelete your comment as well.  Seriously tak sengaja... :(

“Wahai saudaraku! Jangan engkau dekati Muhammad itu. Dia orang gila. Dia pembohong. Dia tukang sihir. Jika engkau mendekatinya, engkau akan dipengaruhinya dan engkau akan menjadi seperti dia,” kata seorang pengemis buta Yahudi berulang-ulang kali di satu sudut pasar di Madinah pada setiap pagi sambil tangannya menadah meminta belas orang yang lalu-lalang.

Pada setiap pagi, kata-kata menghina Rasulullah SAW itu tidak lekang daripada mulutnya seolah-olah mengingatkan kepada orang ramai supaya jangan terpedaya dengan ajaran Rasulullah SAW. Seperti biasa juga, Rasulullah SAW ke pasar Madinah.

Apabila baginda sampai, baginda terus mendapatkan pengemis buta Yahudi itu lalu menyuapkan makanan ke mulutnya dengan lembut dan bersopan tanpa berkata apa-apa.

Pengemis buta Yahudi yang tidak pernah bertanya siapakah yang menyuapkan itu begitu berselera sekali apabila ada orang yang baik hati memberi dan menyuapkan makanan ke mulutnya.

Perbuatan baginda itu dilakukannya setiap hari sehinggalah baginda wafat. Sejak kewafatan baginda, tidak ada sesiapa yang sudi menyuapkan makanan ke mulut pengemis itu setiap pagi.

Pada satu pagi, Saidina Abu Bakar ra pergi ke rumah anaknya, Siti Aisyah yang juga merupakan isteri Rasulullah SAW untuk bertanyakan sesuatu kepadanya.

“Wahai anakku Aisyah, apakah kebiasaan yang Muhammad lakukan yang aku tidak lakukan?”, tanya Saidina Abu Bakar ra sebaik duduk di dalam rumah Aisyah.
“Ayahandaku, boleh dikatakan apa sahaja yang Rasulullah lakukan, ayahanda telah lakukan kecuali satu,” beritahu Aisyah sambil melayan ayahandanya dengan hidangan yang tersedia. “Apakah dia wahai anakku, Aisyah?”

“Setiap pagi Rasulullah akan membawa makanan untuk seorang pengemis buta Yahudi di satu sudut di pasar Madinah dan menyuapkan makanan ke mulutnya. Sejak pemergian Rasulullah, sudah tentu tidak ada sesiapa lagi yang menyuapkan makanan kepada pengemis itu,” beritahu Aisyah kepada ayahandanya seolah-olah kasihan dengan nasib pengemis itu.


Pada keesokan harinya, Saidina Abu BAkar ra membawakan makanan yang sama seperti apa yang Rasulullah SAW bawakan untuk pengemis itu sebelum ini. Setelah puas mencari, akhirnya beliau bertemu juga dengan pengemis buta itu. Saidina Abu Bakar ra segera menghampiri dan terus menyuapkan makanan ke mulut pengemis itu.

“Hei… Siapakah kamu? Berani kamu menyuapku?” Pengemis buta itu mengherdik Saidina Abu Bakar ra. Pengemis buta itu terasa lain benar perbuatan Saidina Abu Bakar ra itu seperti kebiasaan.

“Akulah orang yang selalu menyuapmu setiap pagi,” jawab Saidina Abu Bakar ra sambil memerhatikan wajah pengemis buta itu yang nampak marah.

“Bukan! Kamu bukan orang yang selalu menyuapku setiap pagi. Perbuatan orang itu terlalu lembut dan bersopan. Aku dapat merasakannya, dia terlebih dahulu akan menghaluskan makanan itu kemudian barulah menyuap ke mulutku. Tapi kali ini aku terasa sangat susah aku hendak menelannya,” balas pengemis buta itu lagi sambil menolak tangan Saidina Abu Bakar ra yang masih memegang makanan itu.

“Ya, aku mengaku. Aku bukan orang yang biasa menyuapmu setiap pagi. Aku adalah sahabatnya. Aku menggantikan tempatnya,” beritahu Saidina Abu Bakar ra sambil mengesat air matanya yang sedih.

“Tetapi ke manakah perginya orang itu dan siapakah dia?”, tanya pengemis buta itu.

“Dia ialah Muhammad Rasulullah. Dia telah kembali ke rahmatullah. Sebab itulah aku yang menggantikan tempatnya,” jelas Saidina Abu Bakar ra dengan harapan pengemis itu berpuas hati.

“Dia Muhammad Rasulullah?”, kata pengemis itu dengan suara yang terkedu.

“Mengapa kamu terkejut? Dia insan yang sangat mulia,” beritahu Saidina Abu Bakar ra. Tidak semena-mena pengemis itu menangis sepuas-puasnya. Setelah agak reda, barulah dia bersuara.

“Benarkah dia Muhammad Rasulullah?”, pengemis buta itu mengulangi pertanyaannya seolah-olah tidak percaya dengan berita yang baru didengarnya itu.

“Ya benar. Kamu tidak percaya?”

“Selama ini aku menghinanya, aku memfitnahnya tetapi dia sedikit pun tidak pernah memarahiku malah dia terus juga menyuap makanan ke mulutku dengan sopan dan lembut. Sekarang aku telah kehilangannya sebelum sempat memohon ampun kepadanya,” ujar pengemis itu sambil menangis teresak-esak.

“Dia memang insan yang sangat mulia. Kamu tidak akan berjumpa dengan manusia semulia itu selepas ini kerana dia telah pun meninggalkan kita,” beritahu Saidina Abu Bakar ra.

“Kalau begitu, aku mahu kamu menjadi saksi. Aku ingin mengucapkan kalimah syahadah dan aku memohon keampunan Allah,” ujar pengemis buta itu.

Selepas peristiwa itu, pengemis itu telah memeluk Islam di hadapan Saidina Abu Bakar ra. Keperibadian Rasulullah SAW telah memikat jiwa pengemis itu untuk mengakui ke-Esaan Allah..
  

Kenapa kisah ni? sebab setiap kali kalau ada yang terasa hati atau tersentap dengan tohmahan, umpatan, cacian or sewaktu dengannya, kita boleh jadikan kisah ini sebagai satu pengajaran.  Kita tak payahlah caci maki balik pada orang tu, malah sebaliknya, kita cuba perbaiki kelemahan yang kita ada dan terus berbuat baik dengan mereka... Maybe it's easier said than done but it's worth to try... Insya-Allah. 

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Regret?

Whoever came across this post,

Have you ever felt so much regret of your own stupidity in your past

That it makes you sick

To believe in something that is not realistic

And will never turn for a miracle

Never realized that you were losing the game

Until you do, then only you learn that loving GOD and yourself 

Should be the biggest rooms beautifully placed in your heart... 

And when you find those rooms... 

You certainly win the game... 

Game  OVER ;)

The End!

Happy Mother's Day 2012!

Many people have said "Sambutlah hari ibu setiap hari dari menyambutnya untuk satu hari sahaja".  It's true indeed... Jasa ibu yang melahirkan memang tiada apa yang mampu untuk kita balas... Maybe agak cliche... but that's the fact that we can't ever deny...

Ada pulak yang kata sambut Mother's Day haram... Saya bukan orang yang sangat expert tentang ilmu agama, banyak lagi yang perlu saya belajar.  Tapi bagi saya, ini terpulang pada niat kita kot... Kita bukan nak menyambut untuk memperingati kepercayaan agama lain tapi kita manyambut hari ibu sebab, masa ni lah Memory Lane or Hallmark banyak produce Mother's day cards yang cantik2, masa ni jugak hadiah2 yang sweet khusus untuk ibu2 dijual merata2 tempat, masa ni jugak banyak events designed for us to spend our valuable time with our mothers and etc.  So why not, we take all these chances to show our moms how much we care...

Mother's day jugak bagus untuk saya yang memang jenis tak tahu nak tunjuk kat Mama, saya sebenarnya sayangkan dia.  Deep down, saya appreciate sangat2 dengan semua pengorbanan untuk jaga kami 5 beradik.  I know it has been really tough to be a single mother that no one could ever imagine unless if they are in her shoes...  So hari ini buat saya bersyukur sebab ada hari yang khusus at least untuk saya beri dia a special little gift khas untuk dia... Bagi saya, saya suka beri a gift yang saya rasa dia mahu atau perlu.  Hopefully dia suka apa yang saya belikan untuk dia...

Here's for all mothers:

Mom, I Love You

KAKAK TUA?

Work is even more demanding now.  This year I took one step further, added perhaps puratanya 1 extra effort for each and every profile.  Nak2 pulak, bila dah cuti seminggu addoi a few reports tak sempat nak buat sebab kejarkan back-to-back events preparations. 

Harini selesai salah satu small events.  This event was actually something like a workshop. A workshop to guide the candidates to apply for our programme.  Lepas workshop we give the opportunity to the selected candidates to sit in the Face-2-Face Session with our evaluation team. This event happens once in a month. Coordinating this kinda event is one of my significant roles being in Corporate Communications.

Biasalah dekat semua events akan ade hiccups... But Syukur Alhamdulillah, everything was still under control... Tapi yang paling lawaknya, (gelak dulu sebelum cerita... hahaha!!!) 

Sesudah habis presentation session je, tibalah masanya untuk I bring the selected participants to see the assigned manager for the Face 2 Face Session.  There was this tall young chap, quite good looking, quite lah {to compare with the rest of the participants} tiba2 panggil I "Kak..." Dalam hati berkata, "Dia panggil org lain kot"... And again he called me "Kak"... "Nak tanya session lepas ni dekat bilik mana?" Well, tidak syak lagi, rupanya sayalah "KAK" itew... WTH!!! Kak? Seriously?! I was kinda offended OK.  He doesn't even look 'that' young! 

gambar hiasan*

All my life, he's the FIRST guy yg panggil I - KAK and was serious about it... Adusshh... Kalau gals, tak kisah lah sebab tu "sisterhood"... (Tepuk dahi laju2)...  I was thinking , do I really look like a Kakak already???  Hurm... tak sangka!  All this while people always thought that I'm 5 years YOUNGER and it was hard for them to believe when I told them my real age... but erk suddenly it felt like a bomb of aging exploded... OK lepasni confirm nak pakai facial mask anti-ageing! Teheheheee... 

 

Jap2... Tak boleh ke cakap "EXCUSE ME" instead... That was really, 'in your face' kinda situation!  Hope guys can be more sensitive after this.  Maybe I am older, but please find the right choice of word to address a woman... Dhuh! ;P

3Gs checked-in Jakarta + Bandung

After planning a trip to Jakarta - Bandung for 9 months (kalau preggie, dah beranak kot, hehehe), finally 9 of us dapat jugak jejakkan kaki ke Jakarta and Bandung for 5 days 4 nites.  3Gs  stands for 3 generations went for this awesome trip

1. My friend, Diyana and her family
   (her hubby, her little boy: sumpah he's an ADORABLE kid  that you must cubit his pipi ~ Zareef, her mother and mother-in-law), 
2. My young lovely aunt ~ Awin (as YOUNG as me, bajet young la kan :P), 
3. My friend ~ Danii, and...
4. Me n hubby!

The last trip to Bandung was in 2009.  The price of telekung, tunic tops, and most of the things lah have increased DOUBLE now.  But they're still way much cheaper than Malaysia.

Here's some of the pictures I took along our journey. 

These pics were taken at Jakarta.  My hubby dapat tangkap hasil yang sangat berbaloi - buat Nike spectacles with transition lenses that costs him only RM170.  Kalau kat Malaysia, you can only get it for RM400+ the cheapest.

Yang ni pulak still sekitar Jakarta.  Massive jam everywhere at Jakarta.  It took us 3-4 hours to reach town from airport.  We stopped by at Masjid Istiqlal (Masjid terbesar di Asia Tenggara) to pray.  We were so shocked by their culture.  Maybe ramai sangat population yg menyebabkan lelaki dan perempuan punya 'kamar kecil/kamar mandi' (toilet) bercampur.  Yeah, imagine how tough it was.  Mulalah rasa insaf dan bersyukur dgn Mosque and Surau yang clean and comfortable in bumi bertuah, Malaysia. 

Then we went to Plaza Indonesia. Motif? to buy the Hard Rock Jakarta T-Shirt. Itu perkara wajib, souvenir utk diri sendiri kalau pergi negara org! Kata hujan batu di negara orang, mestilah kene bawak balik baju  BATU keras kan... :P 

Plaza Indonesia is the high end shopping Mall at Jakarta.  The crowd is totally different from those yang you nampak kat sekitar Jakarta.  Semuanya like Beverly Hills kinda crowd.  Maybe Ashraf Sinclair or Safee Sali kita shopping kat situ kot.  Penat n lapa, singgah lah JCo Donut, makan donut and minum Avocado Chocolate Juice yg sangat sedap... Sampai skarang masih terasa kesedapannya! FULLY RECOMMENDED! *****!  

We stayed at Orange Homes. Masa mula2 sampai Orange Homes ni, rase betul2 homely.  The room's clean and comfortable. Walaupun simple tapi cukup facilities. Siap ade both 3 pin and 2 pin socket. Ade sejadah, aircond, hot water and iron room.  Kolam ikan with loads of gigantic Japanese Koi fish. Cantik, comfortable and cozy hotel!  Tapi kalau nak duduk sini, kene datang beramai2 at least four or five, sebab ia agak terpencil, susah nak cari public transport.  Kena ambik supir (driver) and sewa kereta/van. Breakfast was a bit salty but OK still boleh telan.  I love the coffee.  I quit taking coffee for quite a while now tapi kopi O Orange Homes sangatlah irresistable!

Check it out at http://www.orangehomesbandung.com/

Dekat Bandung, sempat snapped only few pictures je sebab too busy doing shopping.  Motif datang Bandung memang SHOPPING kot! After pegi Factory Outlet along Jalan Riau, kitorg singgah jap minum kat sebelah Heritage FO. Apa lagi, ordered their famous Jus Alpokat - Avocado Juice... Hilang dahaga!

A MUST place to go at Bandung ~ Absolutely PASAR BARU. Rugi besar kalau tak pegi Pasar Baru.  Tak ada gambar langsung, sebab paling banyak 'investment' berlaku kat Pasar Baru ni.  I bought some telekung, some kain Japanese Cotton, tunic top, kain kebaya sulam, kain sulam and paling awesome - buat tailored Jeans for only RM62 with good quality of Denim and comfortable sangat!  Siap within only 2 days, delivered right to our hotel.

Ni masa pegi Strawberry Park.  It was a small strawberry park tak sebest Cameron Highlands la.  Again, rasa bersyukur that Malaysia has better strawberry park. :) I don't remember whether I have ever plucked strawberries all my life, sebab pegi dulu masetu kecik lagi... Tak ingat... So here, I got to pluck the strawberries fresh from pokok.  Sangat juicy and yummy! Now dah masuk dalam my favourite list... Alamak jenuhlah kena gi Cameron Highlands pulak lepas ni. :P

After asyik makan Nasi Padang je, we changed our selera to Masakan Sunda.  We went to Kampung Daun.  Very soothing restaurant that is located near streaming river and surrounded by nature.  It was beautiful.  The food presentation pun cantik.  I like this place. 3 of them including my hubby kena food poisoning and demam.  Diorang sampai boleh tidur nyenyak dalam pondok ni because it was windy and drizzly.

These pictures were taken on the last day at Orange Homes, Bandung.  It was really a trip to remember... The journey was quite tiring but it was much worth it!  Berapa kerugian?
       

TOTAL:  RM 3000 + for 2 of us termasuk flight, hotel, transportation, shopping allocation, F&B and souvenirs.

Nasib baiklah kitorang ada buat little savings each and every month to help us to go on this trip. Alhamdulillah... Murah sgt lah to compare with pegi Turkey yang flight and accommodation only dah RM4000 +. 

But then again it wasn't "kerugian" it was absolutely good investment for good things and great memories... Sampai my hubby tanya can we do it like an annual trip for us? Whoaaa... If only we could... *big grin...

So, I am planning to open another savings account just to save up for traveling since both of us LOVE traveling.

the Proposal

Recently kecoh 1 Malaysia about the proposal Awal Ashaari made to Scha Al Yahya broadcasted live in Propaganza show at Astro.  I didn't watch it LIVE but when a lot of my friends posted the video in FB, I watched it at youtube.  Mama punya komen as expected "That's not us, that's NOT our culture"... Well... rasenye it has become a trend now kot. NOw? Not really. I remember something. The first time a guy proposed to me when I was 21... Yeah 21... And it's so much like a romantic movie OK.  So it's not a"now" thing, it happened to me like way long ago...  like a decade ago... hurm...

That guy... hurm... classic approach... tak kenal langsung siapa mamat ni at first... He got my number from a friend. He rajin betul called me since that.  After 6 months stalking, and talking to me over the phone only, (not a scary stalker cos he was quite nice), barulah my friend set me up, took me to the beach and he was there waiting. Hahahaa... Kan dah kata mcm movie... At that time he was 28, 7 years older than me.  Then right there in the sea breeze, he asked me whether I want to marry him... God, what was he thinking I was only 21 and I hardly knew him... Hahaha... Seriously classic! Yg klaka tak sudah, he didn't give me a bouquet of flowers or ring, but he gave me Simba, yeah as in the Lion King Simba... Cute huh?  I had to say NO and obviously I was too young for that...

10 years later, a GOOD friend of mine called and told me "I have already told my Mom that I have found someone. I want her to be my wife.  Wait, my mom will go to your house, to meet your mom, to propose you"... Awwwhhh... And he has become my husband now, my dear sweetheart... Tak payahlah bawak I pegi tempat tinggi, atau by the beach, atau fancy restaurant... Kalau dah jodoh, through a simple phonecall pun lebih manis... :')