Tell me what you want me to do...

Have you heard a song that makes you reminisce the moments you've had before.  And when you did, it's hard or even quite embarrassing to share with other people although they are the closest to you about how you're actually taking a walk slowly down to the memory lane.  I know that it does not sound right if we allow ourselves to just drown in the past lives since we should live in the present, live a life to the fullest.  But... I can't help myself after listening to this beautiful song.

This another one sweet song reminds me how pure my heart was when I first fell in love.  In other words, I was so young and naive. Dumb? No... Was just so in love for the first time but too shy to admit.  Yeah...  Zipped my lips for five years.  When the technology hadn't arrived, I threw all the words about my feelings towards him on papers of my diaries... I sang along with all the songs that could read my mind at the time.  As long as I didn't break a promise to myself that I would never tell him. Because... I was scared that he won't love me back.  I was scared that he would hurt me if he knew how I felt about him...  After 5 years, there we were witnessed by the moon and stars, young love... Eventually we realized that we were just not meant for each other. It wasn't like how I thought that it would be....   

Funny, how things have changed so much now.  I'm shaking my head while smiling now...  We both now have seperate lives. We both are happy with our seperate lives... Alhamdulillah...

Communication

We women usually over react when we become angry.  We'll tend to just blurt out all the harsh words without thinking what would come next. I'm not saying all of women out there are the same, but most of us yes, we often do that to our hubs.  It's good if we still have time to apologise, kiss and make up but what if we don't?

Lesson learnt: good communication is very important in a marriage.  Both of us have faults. Be accepting of each others faults. Don't find fault with each other. Instead of finding faults give each other compliments. Everyone loves compliments.

On the Edge

Now, I'm so afraid to live. Sounds like so dramatic.  But yeah... Recently there's a tsunami occured in Japan. I heard a lot of scary stuff...  It's pretty much affected me.  Are we really getting so much closer to the Judgement Day? Kiamat memang dah sangat dekat ke? Ermm... I'm making a progress to be a good Muslim but it's only a little progress.  I often screwed up especially when it comes to being a good daughter and wife.  CHANGE... Yeap, I need to make a change. Now or never.  My starting point Insya-Allah would be to pray earlier than usual.

Lately my other half gets edgy easily... I might not be a perfect wife but how I wish that I won't be the one who causes him to be such way.  We don't have huge fight or anything like that but we often have small fights over a silly thing.  I do know that we still love each other and can't resist one another.  Maybe I need to learn to have more patience and to have more faith.  May Allah bless us... Ameen...

Movie Marathon

What's the most popular dating place for KL people?.  What's the most popular thing to do with friends in KL?.  What's the most popular thing to do whenever you feel bored? When you have nothing to do, what would you do? I have the answer to all the above... MOVIE!!!  So today, we had Movie Marathon.

Movie Marathon tu ape ye? Watched MORE than one movie in a row I guess....  I am Number Four was not too bad.  Nothing much to say cos I can't wait to write about the next movie... Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa... Wow, it's crazy cool, the greatest movie from Yusry KRU.  It's really making me wanting to know more about the story of this tough guy... Who was MERONG MAHAWANGSA? I shall read about him soon.

Both weren't emotional movies.  And I'm glad I can save my tears for not dropping  over any of the movies today... : )  And lastly Stephen Rahman's super hawt!!!

WAITING

I'm not being myself lately.  I'm married to the most wonderful person I've ever known all my life...  Sometimes I feel that he's so kind and I don't deserve him.  I'm spoilt!  I feel so sad... It's not like I don't love him but I feel there's something missing in our lives. We may seem like so perfect for each other for a fact that we both can't resist one another but... I'm sad because we haven't been given a child after almost 3 years we've been together.  Owh God why... We both are good with children, he loves to play with them while I love to take care of them, and I think we both are ready to have one... But what's wrong with us? Why can't we have one now?

Now I feel out of place...Turning green with envy, all of them are happy with a complete family... I hate it so much when I have to wait... All my life is all about waiting.  I realize that I got all the best things in my life but to get there, I had to WAIT... Waiting has caused suffering... Yeah people can ask me to be patience... Waiting will teach us patience. May I ask them back, for how long?

But then again maybe we're not given a child because we're not ready... But the thing is, when will we be ready then?  I'm not getting even younger right?